VERSE1:
Cmaj7 C Cmaj7 C Em C
fourteen years thirty minutes 15 seconds I've
Em C
held this grudge
Cmaj7 C Cmaj7 C Em C
eleven songs 4 full journals, thoughts of punishment
Em C
I've expended
VERSE2: (same chords)
not in contact not a letter such communication telepathic
you've been vilified, used as fodder, you deserve a piece of every record
BRIDGE:
F C
but who's it hurting now?
F C
Who's the one that's stuck?
F C
Who's it torturing now
G
with an antique knot in her stomach
C F
I want to be big and let go of
G F
this grudge that's grown old
C F G F
All this time i've not known how to rest this bygone
C F
I want to be soft and resolved
G F
clean of slate and released
Am G F C
I want to forgive for the both of us
VERSE3:
Like an abandoned house dusty-covered furniture still intact
If I visit it now, do I simply re-live it somehow gratuitous
BRIDGE:
But who's still aching now?
Who's tired of her own voice?
Who's it weighing down with no gift from time of said healing
C F
I want to be big and let go of
G F
this grudge that's grown old
C F G F
All this time i've not known how to rest this bygone
C F
I want to be soft and resolved
G F
clean of slate and released
Am G F C
I want to forgive for the both of us
INTERLUDE:
Am C G
Maybe as i cut the cord veils will lift from my eyes
Am C
Maybe as i lay this to rest dead
G
weight off my shoulders will rise
VERSE4:
Here i sit, much determined ever ill-equipped to draw this curtain
How this has entertained, validated and has served me greatly ever the victim
BRIDGE:
But who's done whining now?
Who's ready to put down
This load I've carried longer than I had cared to remember
Chorus:
I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old
For the life of me I've not known how to rest this bygone
I want to be soft and resolved clean of slate and released
I want to forgive for the both of us